I havent been very social over the last month or so because simply I would rather be upbeat instead of depressing. I usually put some effort into working around any angst in my life and presenting the more entertaining side of myself I prefer people to experience.

But right now, (mainly due to many questions about my lack of interaction lately or my faltering mood... ) I'm taking five minutes to explain and to indulge in some self pity... and then I promise to move on and not be so damn self-centred.

Basically I am overwhelmed/fed up due to feeling under the weather. I can usually maintain a bits of positive interactions with others but right now, between the exhaustion, nausea, and the room spinning incapacitating vertigo mixed with migraines and the fear of vomiting often, is starting to take its toll and has severely cut into my work, rest, and play time.

It is starting to affect my mood/mind/mental state and I feel so cranky that even being allowed to be a totally cheeky brat is not relieving the stress. (Although it can lighten the mood momentarily)

Yes, I grok its nothing compared to the chronic pain some people suffer daily, so I should just suck it up and get over it.

Not looking for advice, nor pity, just wanted to explain (in one shot) to those that are feeling neglected or slighted.

Anyhow, thats my five minutes, moving on... SUCKING it up.

Cheers.

Having said that, I had a brilliant week with my best friend... going to the land, the shopping, the eating, the picnic, dinner dates, and going to the theatre and a club .... not to mention being totally spoilt the whole time.

Well, as someone who generally prefers to suck it up, I can assure you that sometimes a little self pity can help :o but generally drugs work better :P